Twenty years of pain gone in an hour

(Altered States of Consciousness)

by Helga Jurgensen

For about 6 years I had been complaining about a right shoulder problem where I had trouble carrying my hand-bag with the strap over my right shoulder, as it was always quite painful. At the Journey of Enlightenment January 2006 Marlyse took us through a past life regression.

Following her suggestions during the closed eye process, I noticed that I was wearing square buckled shoes and felt that I was a male wearing a slim fitting green and brown outfit and riding through a green forest either in England or France maybe 200-300 years ago. I was being pursued, when an arrow or lance pierced my right shoulder and I fell off my horse, and as it collided with other horses, men scrambled to their feet and ran away into the forest. I saw a close up of the arrow (spear?) sticking out near my shoulder-joint, exactly where I had felt pain.

Next scenario; I was in a darkish room sitting at a small desk. I had shoulder length brown hair and was writing a note. ‘Courier’ comes to mind. I think I was to courier a message. Where to, from England to France, or the other way around? The only other image I got was a close up of part of a rich, golden, with jewel and pearl encrusted garment – maybe of a jacket or coat. I assumed I was carrying a message from one Royal house to another and was ambushed on the way.

I observed with interest that since that regression, I no longer have the shoulder pain!

Experiences during the Journey to Enlightenment January 2006 & 2007.

One of the wishes I had for The Journey was to release great tension at the back of my head at the top of the spine, which has been plaguing me for well over 20 years. I had tried massage, physiotherapy, chiropractic and other techniques to alleviate the pain, but could never get rid of it. It was not until the Rebirthing at the January retreat that the tension and pain was fully removed through the process.

Following is the account of that experience.

The breath-work was difficult and very hard work, the dry throat unbearable, but I kept going, a rhythmic, urgent breathing in and out. The legs became stiff, then arms and hands cramped up. The energy started to move up into my torso. I tried surrendering and releasing the muscles of the arms and legs but kept on with the breathing. I felt vibrating energy in the arms and hands and directed the flow upwards towards the crown until the shaking stopped and I floated blissfully as if in a glider above the clouds, in brilliant sunlight, leaving the shadows beneath the clouds behind me. Now gently floating, a wonderful sense of peace came over me, so pleasant I could have stayed there forever.

However Katie came by and urged me to continue with the connected breath. It was tough starting again but I knew I could push through the barrier. This time the energy started pulsating in my lower back which became very painful. I knew I needed to break through the pain barrier and kept going until the energy began to move upwards in big waves (not tingling) and the cramps released. I really kept focusing to move the energy through my neck, into my head and up through the crown. Again a wave of light and peace swept through me. It was wonderful! No more aches and pains, just a feeling of lightness. Beautiful!

Soon I felt powerful, very powerful. I felt I had the wings of an angel, huge wings, feathered wings, much bigger than myself and it was so unbelievably exhilarating to unfurl them, to spread them out. It felt awesome this sense of flying, of freedom, of power- yes- the powerfulness of the wings amazed me. It felt good to spread and fold my wings and to create a current so unbelievably powerful. I felt such strength and saw such beauty that I felt humbled by the sheer boundless power of Source energy. I felt surrounded by love and acceptance, as if there were many smiling faces around me saying “this is how it can be”. No longer did I feel trapped in a cage, no longer was I the little grey mouse running on the never ending treadmill. I was free!! I relaxed into the bliss.

Katie came again and encouraged me to keep going. I was determined to give it 500% (as she always says!) I tuned in to the rhythmic beat of the music and once again pushed myself to do the connected breathing, on and on, until the body took over the breathing and it became a lot easier. A high pitched sound, like the ‘stroking’ of a Tibetan bowl, broke in and I became it. I felt so good! Then I saw a wonderful quartz crystal radiating light and I knew this crystal was also me. I want to remember that image forever! Even though I wanted to stay there in this beautiful experience I knew that I needed to keep breathing, but I was so tired I could not go on. Katie suggested to integrate and said she would come back a bit later.

After a break I decided that I could do it and started off slowly building momentum. There was not as much muscle contraction and the energy was rising to my throat and head and suddenly I found myself in the void. Darkness was all around me, but it felt very comfortable. I swam in this sea of darkness quite contented. Then my arms began to shake uncontrollably, the fingers and hands tightened and cramped up and the arms folded into a fetal position. I observed, as a witness, my body curling up and contracting with my shoulders being pushed in, but my legs were stiff and stretched out.

My neck and head stretched violently backwards and again I felt the tension and pain in the back of the head and neck area. There was coughing and spluttering and finally some deep breaths of air and I knew that I had been born. My body took on the fetal position and the crying began. I think it was brought on by the relief that I had managed to be born into this world. I remember saying to Katie “Thank you, I did it! I have come through the birthing process, I have re-birthed. I have been born!” What an unbelievable experience! Now I knew that the dark void was the womb. No wonder it felt comfortable.

Something definitely shifted during the rebirthing sessions, as I no longer have the tenseness and pain at the back of the head/neck area. Maybe it was the position of the head, stemming back to my birth that always made its presence felt, especially in times of stress. I am so very grateful that this tension has been relieved.

Bodywork has helped me to bypass the rational mind and connect to the emotional and feeling memories stored in my body, and these processes have released tension and pain going way back into my life, even previous lives.

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